Wednesday, May 28, 2014

What Kind of Story Am I?

What Kind of Story Am I?
May 28, 2014

It is interesting to me how songs can evolve over time. Not just as I am writing them, but even years after writing, recording, and releasing them. They seem to take on new layers of meaning for me as time goes by. There are a few songs of mine that have taken on different meanings over the years. Sometimes, when performing an "older" original song, I think back to the time when I wrote the song and I can see a drastic difference in who I was before versus who I am today.

"Blank Page" is an older song (from the "Crash" EP) that talks about Truth. And while I have firm convictions about the Truth, I still have my moments of doubt, confusion, and questioning. This song talks about that.

I can look back on my 30 years on this earth and see the seasons of emptiness or trial or challenge and it actually gives me confidence. Because once you've made it to the other side of a rough patch your perspective changes.  It isn't easy, but now when I face life's tough circumstances, I can have hope and peace because I can see how God has been faithful to me.

I suppose that is the biggest difference I can see in my life. That life is just better when I take my focus off of myself and my problems and my desires, and walk with arms and heart wide open.

So, I might still have some questions. Some doubts. Confusion. And it is all valid. But, taking the focus off of my problems and looking to God for comfort and steadfastness has made an incredible difference in the way I live my life.

I am more at peace. I have a lasting and deep joy. I am learning what it means to really love. It is a process. And finding enjoyment in the journey is a million times better than chasing moments of passing happiness.

I still haven't got it all figured out. But I am becoming more ok with that.

What kind of story am I? I'm not completely sure. But, I am putting some things together. With the guidance of trusted friends and a loving God who is infinitely patient I am learning what it is I am supposed to do with this blank page sitting in front of me.

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Sunday, May 4, 2014

The Artisan Soul

The Artisan Soul
May 4, 2014

I just finished The Artisan Soul by Erwin McManus and I have never felt so inspired and intimidated in my life.

I'm inspired because this teacher and artist whom I deeply respect and admire has basically written a manifesto that validates my work as an artist. He boldly states that every human being is an artist and that our lives are works of art. And that what we do and who we are in life is our masterpiece. I love this. And not just because my "job" title is "artist" but, at a deeper level, I believe that my music is part of the bigger picture of my life-work, my life as a masterpiece. I am inspired to keep creating. To keep growing. To keep making my life into something that helps and encourages others.

At the same time I am intimidated. The Artisan Soul is loaded with stories of people, including the author, who are creating incredible works of art, incredible futures, and I am challenged to bring my best. The call to create is encouraging, yet requires great courage. This is scary.

In a good way.

I highly recommend this book. Whether you consider yourself a creative person or not, this book will speak to you.

I am in an especially "creativity focused" season right now. So, The Artisan Soul fits right in with where I am today. Yet, I also believe that this message that we are all artists is for anyone in any season.

There is much more I could say, but I'm going to leave it at that. Just read it. It will likely change your life.